My 6th Master of love and life course was about learning more about Taoism. My intuition guided me to Thailand to study more about the Tao. (Taoism) In this one month challenge I not only learned taoist medical Qi gong but also spent 7 days in a pitch black dark room with one of the highest ranked Qi gong Grand Masters of our times. But lets start from the beginning…
Taoism or Daoism in short
“Follow the Way/Dao of Nature and never go against it.” Taoists believe that the only ruler is nature and that therefore there are no hierarchies. The Tao is the cosmic way of life. However it is also stated that The tao that can be told, is not the eternal Tao. Words can only point to it, so let’s focus on my experiences and feelings.
Learning Qi Gong:
The first part of my course was about learning Qi Gong. I travelled to Tao-Garden which is Grand Master Mantak Chia’s healing Center in the North of Thailand (Chiang Mai). There I enrolled in a Taoist Medical Qigong training conducted by Tevia Feng the founder of White Tiger Qi Gong.
I took part in his 5 Animal Flow Qi gong Course. A detailed review of my White Tiger Qigong training you can find by clicking here. I learned 5 different animal movements. (White Tiger, Deer, Monkey, Bear & Crane) It was a beautiful experience to learn from nature and see the qualities of these Animals.
I really enjoyed it because learning Qi gong helped me to integrate my experiences of my last course where I lived with Shamans in the peruvian rainforest for 2 months. Back in the jungle I faced so much of my shadows and dark sides and so much healing happened that I was just very happy to have with Qi gong a more gentle approach and nice way to focus on integration through moving my body. I realize more and more that Integration is so very important. It was also beautiful that Tao-Garden is situated in the middle of nature and so the switch from seeing no civilization in the jungle for 7 weeks was not too extreme.
Trusting my Intuition
Actually the way it all turned out to be is really crazy and so synchronistic that my rational side still rebells while writing this down right now. Back in the jungle I had two ceremonies where in a vision one of my spirit animals the falcon flew all the way to Chiang Mai. I have been to Chiang Mai before and although I liked it, it wasn’t a place I thought I need to go again for an awakening challenge. However during the last 7 months of my Master of love and life I really learned to trust my intuition because no matter how crazy it sometimes seemed to my intellect, how it defied any logic, in the end it always blew me away.
So there I sat in south america 19.000 Kilometers away from Thailand without even knowing what exactly I would do in Thailand once I would arrive. I also couldn’t find a cheap flight at all but even though logic was entirely against it, I still booked a flight! 40 hours of combined flights across 3 continents and 12 hours of time difference later I arrived in Chiang Mai. My logic and my rational side still said what the hell are you doing?
I started to study Qigong but I still felt that it was not the main reason why I came. Then I suddenly knew. I found out that this darkroom retreat will just start the day after my Qi gong course finished and although it was fully booked, someone cancelled and there was exactly one spot left for me. It was definitely meant to be. (if you don’t know what a Darkroom experience is, read my Full Darkroom experience Guide by clicking here)
7 day Darkroom experience
For the next 7 days I went into a pitch black darkroom with the Grandmaster Mantak Chia himself. (A review of my Tao-Garden Darkroom experience & Mantak Chia you can read by clicking here) In this darkroom I meditated, I fasted, I listened to his teachings and I also lived and slept in there. In fact I stayed in complete pitch black darkness for 7 days straight. Without seeing a single ray of light at all.
You may ask why are people doing this voluntarily? To get an answer I welcome you again to read my Full Guide on Darkroom experiences here. For me personally I had a strong insight after coming out of the Peruvian jungle where I did a lot of plant ceremonies. I realized plant medicine is amazing but that we actually have all the medicine already inside of us and that we don’t necessarily need any external substances to reach these transformational places. So just plain darkness was the perfect tool for me to confirm these feelings. I also believe that nowadays in our western world out of all the senses we have, we overemphasize so much on our eyes. Everything is just about physical appearances. And writing on this website right now is probably the best example for that. Fast forward to today. I’ve completed the darkroom and now I can definitely verify all that. The Darkness was super powerful! But read for yourself: Here are my biggest struggles, learnings and wisdom takeaways from my Darkroom experience:
Struggles, Learnings & Wisdom Takeaways:
I believe once I become familiar with darkness, I will be able to go beyond our ordinary perception of it as something scary and recognize it as a space from where everything takes form. Passing beyond the habitual conditioning of appearances. I believe it will teach me a form of wisdom that goes beyond the visible…
1 – Pure darkness is very special
Never in my whole life have I been in a place of this pure darkness before. I basically couldn’t even see my hand when it was 1 inch in front of me. On my second day I had a very striking experience with this engulfing darkness… I did some Qigong in my 10 square metre room and at one point I got completely lost. I didn’t know where I was anymore. There was no familiar point of reference, no map in my head that I could use to orientate myself. And so for a few minutes I was completely lost in this black mass. I felt like I was a small dot in endless space and this feeling was scary, almost ego-shattering. I wasn’t in control anymore and I began to panic. But yet at the same time this experience was one of the most profound teachings about Ego I’ve ever received. It taught me that the Ego needs a form to survive, a well-defined area to hold onto. It needs the believe that we are something separate from everything that is around us with very clear borders. When in that moment that separation faded away my Ego did so too. It became non existent but yet something in me was still aware, was still observing. For a brief moment I experienced formless consciousness and that the Ego is not what defines “me” at all…
2 – Darkness is not black but violet
On the first day, I already saw light in the absolute darkness.
It was a strong violet light and it stayed with me during the whole 7 days. In the teachings I then learned that violet light is the primordial light of the universe, which permeates space and reaches all the stars and planets in the universe. It has also the highest color vibration of the color spectrum, vibrating at 790,000,000 vibrations per second. And it is believed to be a programmable healing force. The building block of the universe. Leonardo da Vinci, one of the greatest investigators of color science, said that meditating is 10 times more powerful under violet light.
3 – Eating in pure darkness is amazing
In the darkroom we received a special Pi-Gu fasting diet which is designed to complement the darkroom experience. But we also ate differently. Our Mantra was: “Drink your food and eat your drinks.” So we chewed every bite around 100 times and chewed our drinks too. Because we couldn’t see anything the meals were served to us from employees with night vision goggle, which really felt like being part of a Science-Fiction movie. However, without any visual perception, the flavour and smell of the food was hugely enhanced. And so although we only ate very little like half an apple and nuts for breakfast it tasted incredible and was a very special food experience for me.
4 – Taoist Inner Alchemy is super powerful
Grandmaster Mantak Chia’s (Nr. 18 of the most influential spiritual people in the world)
teachings in the Darkroom consisted mainly of Taoist Inner Alchemy. Thereby we mainly focused on the Kan & Li inner alchemy mediations. For me it was my first time contact with taoist inner alchemy and my mind really rebelled against it. We would visualize not only coupling yin & yang Energy inside of us and using the outcome to steam our organs but also making sex with ourselves and connecting with the stars of the big dipper. And although that sounds super weird and my mind still says this is crazy, I learned to not judge early and so I gave it a try and to my amazement it really worked but see more in takeaway no. 5.
5 – Taoism and Sex
In this one month challenge I realized that for Taoism sex is a huge theme. It is a lot about cultivating orgasmic & sexual energy to heal oneself. Thereby, it is often very mechanical and visual and so the focus on sex felt sometimes really strange for me. However I tried to have no prejudices and tried every practice wholeheartedly and to my amazement it really did work. I had my first brain orgasm ever in the darkroom. However, in the beginning the overuse of the “sex-theme” made me feel really awkward. And I also thought that it is rather impure and inadequate in deep transformative work but then I realized that in the end it’s just a metaphor for love. It is a technique to visualize and cultivate love and self-love and everything else is actually just my conditioning.
Learning one month about Taoism was a beautiful experience. I will surely implement many things of it into my daily life. If you would ask me for one downside of it, I would say that it sometimes seemed to be a bit too mechanical and technical for me. I am curious. Have you ever come in contact with Taoism, Qigong or even a Darkroom Experiences? How did/do you like it?